I try to involve myself with things at GG's school, but at the same time, I try to avoid any huge leadership jobs. I would rather help a group than be in charge of one right now. Right now I want to enjoy my kids while they are still young and still have time for me. But then I hear that so-and-so was on the phone with so-and-so for hours talking business and pleasure. Um, you 2 haven't known each other any longer than I have known you. What did you do that I didn't do to have that kind of relationship?
Someone has a big day to celebrate and others go all out for it. I have a big day and nothing? What am I missing? Do i need to whore my business all over the place or something?
All through high school, I had my group of friends and I was quite happy with that. I wasn't considered one of the "popular" kids and that was ok. I had no desire to be a cheerleader or homecoming queen. That wasn't my style. But now I guess I kind of want that. I want that group of friends who takes getaways, I want that circle of friends that hang out on the weekends or chat on the phone all the time.
Connections in life are great and I have made some great ones. And I am referring to real life and through my blog. But I've been in the state of mind where it doesn't feel like enough. Am i the only one who feels like this? What exactly do I need to do to make more connections and improve the ones I already have?
Until next time....
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I don't know. Sometimes, I'll feel like I made a connection with someone and I end up getting smacked in the face.
I see those same connections and I think- why talk to her and not me? I was talking to a mom at preschool the other day and we were getting along great, and then one of the other moms showed up and that was it- I was shut out. I felt a pang, wondering why I couldn't have that, too. Why I couldn't be included. And, I tried.
I hope someone can comment and have the solution, b/c I sure as hell would like to hear it, too.
OH momma I hear ya. I have one truly good friend who lives about 50 miles from me. I currently raise 3 boys one husband 3 dogs 3 cats and a rabbit along with taking care of my mom. When do I have time for me?? Never that's when. I fall into bed as exhausted as I crawl out of it... and I get lonely, deep heart wrenching lonely and it is a sad scary place..
You'll find through your comments that a lot of people relate. I know I do. I have a weird thing about friendships. I have a few very close friends, and the rest I just consider acquaintances. As a mom, I don't get much time to myself, so when I do, I'd much prefer it be with those few close friends. Therefore, I don't get out a lot either.
Hang in there!
I so relate to this.this is a tough one to get through, but you can and will;)
Get out your funk and shake your junk!! I like doing stuff alone. My favorite is getting a babysitter and going to the movies by myself. I always want to see movies nobody else does so I figured I am my cheapest and best date!!
It can be SO hard sometimes!! I think that some moms just have their "set" group of friends and aren't interested in letting anyone else in, and that is tough!
It is weird though, I have a lot of friends but definitely don't get out as much as I'd like with them. I have also been the girl who wishes for girlfriends who like to take a weekend getaway a couple times a year, but it always seems that my friends have some sort of excuse every time why they can't go!
I know what you mean. It is hard to find that right person or friend to connect with. When I moved away from everything I knew with my husband it was hard. I would make friend and they were gone. It is just different making friends as an adult. Just to let you know I am a friend you can count on.
I am the same way, I have lots of friends but I don't ever feel I make enough effort to actually get out of the house and see them. Thank God for blogging!
I completely know where you're coming from! We move around pretty frequently (about once a year or so). It is so hard to make a connection and really find someone where you don't have to be the one to make all the effort! (hugs) I wish I had good advice, but just know you're not alone!
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